Hiatus Interrupted

Vehicle
My car’s front left bumper got smashed in and the hood slightly bent from … who knows what! It was a hit and run. I was at work and one of my colleagues (I often drop them off at the station on our way home from work), noticed the ryuinous condition as I turned out between two cars. A car prior to mine must have had a run-in with my Stationary Car.

Sigh – there’s goes license plate.

Job
While not paying as satisfyingly high as I’d like (which never does – and if you do, shut up), I’m made some hiccups in the last two days. I screwed up on two FA’s. If youre a designer or in publishing (?), you’d know what I mean. Even the printers got it too late and made films for it. At least the plates weren’t made yet but its still bad enough.

Gym
Got too messed up and PO’ed about the car and work that I had a pretty good workout the last few days. I may be just starting out and can barely see what difference it makes, but I got good pointers the past week in the gym and I enjoyed the physical exertion. In all honesty, it was fueled by frustration for the extra little push. Its also nice to see a number of regulars start to improve as well – I’m hoping I seem that way as well.

I’ve got to make a blog about my exercise just so, … I don’t know, more self encouragement or perhaps something consistent to get me more up to speed about working out.

Creativity
I have not drawn, illustrated anything in the past few months. This is bad. I’ve not even written anything either. I’m creativity is rotting slowly to mundaneity.

I’ve decided – I gotta, be more aggressive to pursue and maintain anything artistic left in this brain of mine.

It may not be common knowledge, but working as a designer really depends on you environment and work itself. I’m a graphic designer and designing client based brochures, pamphlets, leaflets, posters and stuff does NOT encourage creativity, unless you a high position or something in a high-end international company. But even then, you are driven to produce good “Marketable” work. There’s little to no personal derivation of personal pleasure and inspiration poured into it.

Must make time out for it.
Regardless, no matter, whatever!

Life
Realizing that someone you still care for (an ex) has a fatal condition puts things closer to home. I don’t find myself re-evaluating goals but I do begin to consider more things. Perhaps letting go more so. Permitting less stress into my decisions, learning to just accept that some things and people cant change and I cant change them. Understanding that everyone and everything moves in different paths and though things do leave a bitter taste, it helps to know that it can move on.

Letting others think less of me, shouldn’t be any concern but what I think of myself should begin to take a greater precedence.

Finally, I should sleep around more often.
(I'd start with Cyclops from X-Men)

Any takers ?