Day of Birth celebrations and aftermath.

So the party pics are coming a little late.
I'm actually waiting on the pics for Marc's party in December and Zam's pics early this month (Feb). Azri is still a hottie - althos Zam is just as delicious! Ezra is definitely not too far behind - in fact relatively close to the other two in my impossibly-wanting-to-sleep-with list.

Overall my weekend was uhmm, mixed.

Friday:
I did my EPF. I was impressed at the efficiency of this particualr government matters of handling EPf and stuff. It was quick, painless and effificient. I accompanied a friend (Kristin) to a straight bar in Bangsar for a friends birthday gathering in 'Social' and to check out a guy she's been crushing on. Not bad a guy, at first nothing to look at - but when I began talking to him, I was impressed ... and attracted myself (LOL) :D Boy, was there a lot of str8 guys there I'd sleep with!

Saturday:
Had a game - ran for a couple of hours. Cutie str8 - ex-player Darrian dropped by. Got thoroughly bored at night and drove about and ended up at Kristin's talking about exp the night before. At midnight, I got a call from my ex, wishing me a happy birthday. I was ... feeling mixed.
I loved hearing from him, and it only reminds me of how much I miss him, tho' I am still sore that he put me through heck just to have me do the break-up routine only to date someone else in about a week after our 'official' word. ARgh!
I can only reassure myself constantly by saying its all in the past and that I'm so much better of just letting it go. Bygones.

Sun: Yea, it was my birthday. Personally uneventful and for the most part unnoticed especially by my new White Wolf 'Demon' group. Of which I ran their first game - adequately well today. Character creation for half of them and a full prelude was completed. Short but enough - since I was already beginning to suffer from a light migraine.
I must admit to being somewhat annoyed I was called by Yee Von to fetch her from the house 15 minutes before the game began. I wouldn't have minded at all if she had told me the night before that she *might* need a ride or if she informed me befire I made my morning errands.
Night - early as it was, I was tapped out. Perhaps it was the conflicting emotional state brought on my the familiar uninspiring (as always every year) birthday. Perhaps it was the trial of going through 2 new game sessions (campaigns: one with veteran players and the other with new players). Whatever it was, I missed watching Oprah's interview on the stars Heath and Jake on the movie Brokeback Mountains which I was waiting to see.
The phenomonen of Brokeback M. intrigued me. You can find it on and all over the net; the reactions of the fans of Ang Lee's latest work.


A personal latest pic of mine taken .. early Feb 2006.




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My hot new co-worker! Keith!

ps: I've decided since no one reads this damn blog - i'm posting every single un-PC thought in my head - names and ALL!

Parties and Games (RPGs and Slosh)

Its been a long time since I've been to a slosh party. Much less a gay one.
I'll try and see if I can ask for peek previews digi-shots of the night.

The invitation was from Zam (yummy!) and it was a welcome event to my otherwise dreary-packed nights. Of course everyone would be new to me, having only known some as acquaintances and really only getting to know a few of them recently.

Let's recap.
Zam, Ray, Ezra, Azri, Vince, me, Taufiq, Aaron, Ezras (str8) cousin, Barry, and 2 estrogen making machines - Sonia + Caroline (who I have not seen for ages!). ... and the alcohol of course.

Now Caroline was someone I knew about 4 - 5 years ago from college, and we've lost contact. We weren't fast friends but we did share a mutual set of friends now and there. It was a small-world-kinda-pleasant surprise meet. On the whole, she was high on alcohol - then again, who wasn't at the party.

Ah, nostalgic. All the drama, hype, make-out (phew! heavy handed) sessions; even the single str8 guy was getting some action!. So I kinda felt left out of the loop of things. I had little with the connection of the group and its personal dynamics and histories.But it was still a fun, welcome experience. ... and Azri is gorgeous!
and all in some out of the way, valley-hill in the middle of no-mans land out-on-the-patio on rugs with snack-and-booze scenarios - sigh.

Let do it again!

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I started my campaign (rpg) game last Saturday. I really hope to turn it into another long running campaign again and make it consistent. It seems like a good time to have something like that.

Its a slightly altered system.
I did not want to intriduce too many new concepts and rules that strayed from DnD 3.5. It familiar to my players and I know most wouldnt want to do extra nnumber crunching or learn too many new things. Its simply not the group play style. It should be rules-light and casual extensive - but of course with real flavour and solid mechanics.

Took me a break of about 10 months or so to finally get to where I'm confortable with what I've set my players. Some simplified numbers, easier levelling- more customization, more dynamic rolling and some more based numbers rather than an entirely whole random set of rolls (time save).

I think it'll be ok, but only time will tell
I hope they like it.

Hiatus Interrupted

Vehicle
My car’s front left bumper got smashed in and the hood slightly bent from … who knows what! It was a hit and run. I was at work and one of my colleagues (I often drop them off at the station on our way home from work), noticed the ryuinous condition as I turned out between two cars. A car prior to mine must have had a run-in with my Stationary Car.

Sigh – there’s goes license plate.

Job
While not paying as satisfyingly high as I’d like (which never does – and if you do, shut up), I’m made some hiccups in the last two days. I screwed up on two FA’s. If youre a designer or in publishing (?), you’d know what I mean. Even the printers got it too late and made films for it. At least the plates weren’t made yet but its still bad enough.

Gym
Got too messed up and PO’ed about the car and work that I had a pretty good workout the last few days. I may be just starting out and can barely see what difference it makes, but I got good pointers the past week in the gym and I enjoyed the physical exertion. In all honesty, it was fueled by frustration for the extra little push. Its also nice to see a number of regulars start to improve as well – I’m hoping I seem that way as well.

I’ve got to make a blog about my exercise just so, … I don’t know, more self encouragement or perhaps something consistent to get me more up to speed about working out.

Creativity
I have not drawn, illustrated anything in the past few months. This is bad. I’ve not even written anything either. I’m creativity is rotting slowly to mundaneity.

I’ve decided – I gotta, be more aggressive to pursue and maintain anything artistic left in this brain of mine.

It may not be common knowledge, but working as a designer really depends on you environment and work itself. I’m a graphic designer and designing client based brochures, pamphlets, leaflets, posters and stuff does NOT encourage creativity, unless you a high position or something in a high-end international company. But even then, you are driven to produce good “Marketable” work. There’s little to no personal derivation of personal pleasure and inspiration poured into it.

Must make time out for it.
Regardless, no matter, whatever!

Life
Realizing that someone you still care for (an ex) has a fatal condition puts things closer to home. I don’t find myself re-evaluating goals but I do begin to consider more things. Perhaps letting go more so. Permitting less stress into my decisions, learning to just accept that some things and people cant change and I cant change them. Understanding that everyone and everything moves in different paths and though things do leave a bitter taste, it helps to know that it can move on.

Letting others think less of me, shouldn’t be any concern but what I think of myself should begin to take a greater precedence.

Finally, I should sleep around more often.
(I'd start with Cyclops from X-Men)

Any takers ?