Muse of Dark and Light

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So like this was both unexpected (light) and expected (dark).

About time for Jordis, remarkable that’s it wasn’t’ any sooner. Or maybe it was!

As for Federov, I guess …. He stills go on. (wince). I don’t particularly dislike him, he has a really nice buff body (god yumminess *lick lick) but +face didn’t work for me. At least he looks fit enough to be on Fear Factor.

Regardless of my opinion on his personality though, I still wouldn’t kick him out of bed in the morning.

Jordis is haunting and captivating, one of my favourites next to wild charismatic JD Fortune and hot, brilliant MiG Ayesa. (Rockstar INXS)

Excerp:

The Federov Tale
In February, watch Fear Factor on NBC! (Anthony Federov will be participating).

The Epic Jordis
Rockdetector.com is reporting that "Rock Star: INXS" finalist Jordis Unga, girlfriend of AMERICAN HEAD CHARGE guitarist Karma Cheema and former LIARS CLUB singer, has apparently, after much speculation, signed to Epic Records.

Reiterating the Mundane

So there's a post like this all across the globe. And I do mean the one we inhabit; not golden, snow or boston.

So I'll try and keep this short. I cannot promise painless. We feel pain for a reason, mostly for the sick and perverse pleasure of knowing we can inflict it.

There is quite a bit of work to do, and yet work moves a little slow. The hamster wheel spins less and less as the hyperactive hamster learns to read the TV guide under its cage.

But here I am, metaphorically slaving away for what little cash I get paid for at the end of the month. It basically supports what meagre lifestyle I possess.

(sigh).

Here's a pretty picure to look at. Yes, I took this piece at night in KL Sentral. Ta da ...

Review, Life and the Consequence.

DOOM the movie.

This will be a really short commentary. It’s not great, probably good when in the right mood. The beginning was paced so slowly to build suspense. However when you know what the premise of the movie is then all the suspense built to the shock horror feels dragged out rather than tense and organic. The comedy is quite terse and out of place.

On the whole, I only really enjoyed the last 15 minutes or so, which was what I expected really out of the movie. At least I learn one thing from the movie. Any single character with any sort of back story (whether relevant or necessary to the movie) usually means they’ll survive any onslaught that’s thrown at them.

At least I got to see a new yummy asian actor, Yao Chin. (2nd form the right) Note: Not the best picture of him. He is SO much hotter in motion.
Here’s a screencap, he’s the (d’oh) asian guy there. Oh yea, it was a real treat to see hottie “Eomer” there too :D


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Must buy new shoes. I have a tendency to buy one pair and use it till it falls apart at the segments. I love sneaker but how come the ones I really love are all so terribly expensive. I’m such shoe-o-holic. Except I can’t afford to indulge in it, so many I’m a wanna-shor-o-holic. Too bad I spend too much on my computer games and MMORPG’s.

Consequence: I didn’t sleep this weekend. Trying to fill my limited weekend time up, I ended up with a sleepless weekend. When I awoke on Saturday noon, I rushed up to get to the Subang, ss15 Drive-through Mickey Ds. I was running a little late for my Role-playing game (Call of Chtulhu), while trying to formulate the next game I plan to run sometime next month or two later. That segwayed into dinner and a movie (DOOM). I got a call that evening to reschedule a night appointment for a movie on Sunday morning (next day).

So I decided on making some impromptu plans with friends around the area. It turned out to be an all night affair at the cybercafé playing games. Its 9 am in the morning and I decide it’s not worth going back to sleep at home and wit out the next hour to meet my friend. He booked us tickets to watch … DOOM. I can barely stay awake but I do.

It actually a slightly better the second time around when you’re halfway conscious and not really paying attention to anything in the movie. After that it lead to the evening where I finally got home, and yet I still did not lay my head for rest. I finished some household chores and stuff and had my obligatory weekend MMORPG fix and slept at my usual daily time of 2.00 -3.30 am.
I’m going to go insane one of these days, if not moreso than I am now. And that all I’m going to recount. And no, I did now have sex like I intended to with anyone this weekend.

Why I mention this, is because I’m willing to admit that I do think about sex very often (research says the average for a male person is about, every 7 second interval or was it 11?) And will gladly admit to such thought in public.

After all, I seem to be in NO danger of fulfilling it

At the twiddle of my fingers ...

National Novel Writing Month

http://www.nanowrimo.org/


For you budding novelists who just cant get started, there's a contest
just for you :D

Here's some excerp: by the way, I WILL be participating in this :D Just
gotta write it WHILE at work! Well not everything at work, I mean I actually have to work and stuff.

National Novel Writing Month is a fun, seat-of-your-pants approach to
novel writing. Participants begin writing November 1. The goal is to
write a 175-page (50,000-word) novel by midnight, November 30.

Valuing enthusiasm and perseverance over painstaking craft, NaNoWriMo
is a novel-writing program for everyone who has thought fleetingly
about writing a novel but has been scared away by the time and effort
involved.

Because of the limited writing window, the ONLY thing that matters in
NaNoWriMo is output. It's all about quantity, not quality. The
kamikaze approach forces you to lower your expectations, take risks,
and write on the fly.

Make no mistake: You will be writing a lot of crap. And that's a good
thing. By forcing yourself to write so intensely, you are giving
yourself permission to make mistakes. To forgo the endless tweaking
and editing and just create. To build without tearing down.

As you spend November writing, you can draw comfort from the fact
that, all around the world, other National Novel Writing Month
participants are going through the same joys and sorrows of producing
the Great Frantic Novel. Wrimos meet throughout the month to offer
encouragement, commiseration, and -- when the thing is done -- the
kind of raucous celebrations that tend to frighten animals and small
children.

In 2004, we had over 42,000 participants. Nearly 6000 of them crossed
the 50k finish line by the midnight deadline, entering into the annals
of NaNoWriMo superstardom forever. They started the month as auto
mechanics, out-of-work actors, and middle school English teachers.
They walked away novelists

Friends & Fiends

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Friends

Query: When do I stop?

Its only natural, some say evolutionary to culture and self growth and awareness. Ohers are would say "Shit Happens". I think the overall philosophy is to just learn to live with it and let go.
Living with it, I'm okay.
Letting go, I need work.

Not so much fiends but relegated back to acquaintances and strangers (tres harsh).

So how much do I try "To want a Friend, Be a Friend"? Maybe I'm not so good at subtle hints. Maybe lack of communication isn't necessarily accidental.

I understand life and circumstance changes priorities, friendships and schedules. But I try to make time nonetheless I feel are central to my life at the moment. So when fewer and fewer respond, do I take it as a sign to move on? I being melodramatic I know. The little voice in my mind still tells me to go ahead and attempt to reconnect with people who've apparently moved on from me.

Bah!, I think I've probably just answered my own question.
I'll have just let them be. If they contact me in return, great; if not, sucks to be me.

Now if only I could satisfy this annoying frustration with sex.
Any takers?

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Blog Booms and Ego Envy

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Blogs are booming everywhere. The installation of privacy has now gone public. Air you rants and live for the next click, browse, comment and reply. Insidious, no?
And here I am, regaling in the comforts of this new 'recruitment'.

Will it compete for attention amongst the millions of others out there ...
I do not know, I've never keen on competition though I have accounts that say otherwise. The intention is was never about competition but the road to Heck is paved with Every Intention.

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Ego Envy.
What an interesting and common notion.
So hear my confession.

"I've never been ambitious, at least enver quite as my peers in my history. But I've had a fair notion of jealousy and envy. Its all good in the end and I'm genuinely glad the people who'd made it, have ... well, made it. I'm pretty sure they work damn well hard for it too.
But a part of my mind wonders if its really all about luck and the right combination of looks and cultural requirements'. Luck, is inferred to timing.

Its begins with those low-esteem-ish like queries. Maybe we've all had them at different points of our lives, year, weeks or day. Aren't I good enough? Application: Universal from relationships to careers. But its ranges from "What's wrong with me?" to "What's wrong with them?"

Case in point:
Adam Carruthers (8tv, Hitz Radio DJ) and William Quah (post VJ, TV Host) (Malaysian Celebrities under 22) (Note: Not a BASH)

They have the look that television requires, (I guess I dont *wails), they fulfill the pan-asian facade (well, I'm in the shitters there too), they speak with an acquired ... accent which seems to give the impression of well spoken English (and yes, they are well spoken and have a great command of the english language). Well, la dee la.
Curse their genes, timing, connections and good luck.

In all probability, their auditions went well, their headshots were impressive, they didn't choke on camera, they looked great on screen (and real life, it never hurts in real life), they sound great (some might say utterly schem-xy) and they are young and ambitious.

I'm torn between hating them for their good fortune (they work hard I reiterate but it wouldn't have been so without a measure of the right timing and people), wondering why I couldn't do the same thing and wanting to sleep with them. :/ "

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I sound bitter and horny.

I'm not above being bitter and horny. I will admit.I do have litte to no ambition whatsoever, but I wouldn't trade in whatever history I've had (though its nice to wonder). Its different, probably not as glamourous (this would include the hassle of being a celebrity coz glam is spam), but it'll do. Like the pig in the farm, it'll do.

It'll do.

Resurrection

This is a test, moreso a preview.

Between hoping it works and that there will one day be a massive worship of my musings, I really kinda hope this posts.